Have You Ever?

Have you ever had questions about where and how you go to where you are? Have you ever second guessed MAJOR decisions? Have you ever wondered why God has things happen the way they do? Have you ever just wanted to cry...a big cry? Have you wanted so badly to share something with someone, but you just can't open up. You just can't become vulnerable enough to speak. You're not sure you trust anyone enough to open up to. Has anyone ever betrayed you in a way that some think as trivial but is really a stab in your heart? Have you ever frozen up and can't tell anyone what is wrong?
That is where I am right now. That is some of what I am feeling....can you read between the lines?