You To Miss

Some people try to hide 

They try to move on 

Can't stand the pain of you gone 

But baby that's not me 

I'd never try to ease the ache that I feel 

The pain reminds me how real 

This love has come to be 

And I'm not running scared 

I will stay right where 

I gave you my word 

That I would be 

And I don't want to hurt 

But I know I have to feel 

I do it to be close to you 

Just to keep you real 

And I don't want to cry 

But tears are part of life 

They conquer the impossible 

And make you feel alive 

And I'm so glad, my love 

That I have you to miss 

Some people try to fake 

They don't feel this 

Can't stand to face the realness 

So they just run away 

But I want nothing more than you to hold me 

To intimately know me 

So I'll hurt along the way 

And I'm not running scared 

I will stay right where 

I gave you my word 

That I would be 

And I don't want to hurt 

But I know I have to feel 

I do it to be close to you 

Just to keep you real 

And I don't want to cry 

But tears are part of life 

They conquer the impossible 

And make you feel alive 

And I'm so glad, my love 

That I have you to miss 

And it could never hurt so bad that I would trade the love we have 

And it could never cut so deep that I would ever want to leave 

And I don't want to hurt 

But I know I have to feel 

I do it to be close to you 

Just to keep you real 

And I don't want to cry 

But tears are part of life 

They conquer the impossible 

And make you feel alive 

And I'm so glad, my love 

That I have you to miss 

I'm so glad, my love that I have you to miss 

And I'm glad my love that I have you to miss

Some days...

Some days aren't so bad during deployments, but some days are tough. It's not always the whole day, sometimes it's just the nights. When Ryder does something to make me laugh and I turn to call and tell him to look or say 'can you believe he just said that?' Only to realize I'm talking to myself. And sometimes, I'm just tired and want to lay my head on his chest or just lay down and have my back rubbed....or have him give Ryder a bath (haha). You would think that 2 1/2 weeks in, I wouldn't keep making those mistakes, but I do.
I know that our men and women go through so much during deployment, but the ones left behind, I think, are often forgotten in the public eye. I am so thankful for my friends and for the support system I have here, but boy, I miss my husband.