Showing posts with label blessings. Show all posts
Showing posts with label blessings. Show all posts

Wednesday, May 2, 2012

Consider it Pure Joy...

My devotional tonight, on my son's birthday, struck a cord in my heart...I am going to type it for you and then explain why this one really hit home...

"Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance." James 1:2-3
'The book of James is an interesting book...If its guidelines are followed, they can make a radical difference in our lives.
James talks about trials...[about] the many kinds of difficulties that come into our lives. Some of them happen because of circumstances beyond our control, and others we bring on ourselves because of [choices we've made and] sin. When he talks about joy, he's not talking about happiness or pleasure...[but] a sense of gladness. It is the ability to look beyond the problem or difficulty and see the opportunity for growth. it means discovering how God can be glorified through what we are experiencing.
James tells us to consider trials a joy. "Considering" is a matter of attitude, making a choice about how you will respond to your trials. It is a decision to endure because of your desire to do the will of God. It is a choice to complete the will of God IN SPITE OF what it costs you. You're not denying the trial, you're realistically facing it and in time turning the heartache into joy. And the result is perseverance or endurance.
Yes, it is possible to actually experience an inner peace while your world is crumbling around you...'

Find joy in trials...SAY WHAT?!?! How is that possible. Nobody finds joys in a crisis. 1 1/2 years ago and I would have agreed with you...but then I got pregnant. If you know me, you know I wasn't married when this happened. If you know my family (and my husband's family) you know that this was not easy news to deliver. Not only were we not married, but Pat was deployed and I was left alone to deal with the pregnancy and face the disappointment of our families. (They never stopped loving us through it) What was worse, for me at least, was that I was torn. I was so excited and happy and felt so blessed that I was pregnant and God had chosen me for a specific little life but my world was slowly collapsing and I had no support to keep those walls from falling down. Throughout my pregnancy I kept a positive attitude because I kept God near me, but please don't think for a second that just because I had Him near me that it was easy. Telling our parents and hearing the disappointment in their voices was devastating. Not having graduated from college or having a true home of my own or a salaried job with healthcare made me feel like I was drowning. I cannot put in to words the panic I felt in the beginning (and, honestly, still do to this day). But, through it all, I could see God's hand and see His work being done. Everyday I woke up without morning sickness, every time I looked at my sweet baby in an ultrasound picture, and every time I felt a nudge/punch/kick, I knew how truly blessed I was and that God was going to provide for all of the unknowns. When I would cry myself to sleep at night from being scared or lonely, Ryder would, faithfully, give me a nudge/punch/kick to let me know he was there. I knew that was God's way of telling me He was there, too. 
If you have doubts or questions about whether God is really there, just look at me. There is no way I could have made it through my pregnancy without my boyfriend/fiance/husband and, all the while, finishing my last semester of college, working full time, and having a full time internship. I have never felt more close to God than I have since I got pregnant. That crisis not only gave me perseverance and strengthened my faith, but it taught me how important my attitude is. I had a peace about it. I knew people would yell and some would be disappointed and might not talk to me for awhile, but I knew that once people saw Ryder-they would be just as happy and excited as I was (and they were). And here I am today, with a husband I am completely in love with, a beautiful baby boy, a wonderful home, and back in school for something I really love:)
I serve an AWESOME God!

Tuesday, August 2, 2011

3 Months...Where Did It Go?

WOW! I cannot believe that 3 months have come and gone by already! Everyone said that time would go by quickly but it's amazing how fast it really does. My little angel bear has grown so much. He smiles and laughs all the time now and is trying soooo hard to roll over (he is almost there!!) He is starting to realize he is ticklish. He tries to talk to us and loves when his daddy holds him. He has started to realize that he can grab things on purpose and will reach for his toys now...He stares at all of his mobiles and laughs with them. He'll sit and watch tv now (he loves the show GLEE and hates Bea Arthur's voice lol) He is such a good baby. God has blessed me so much these past 3 months (and the 37 weeks 6 days I was pregnant for) and I cannot express how much I love this sweet baby boy...



















Sunday, July 24, 2011

A Moment to Myself

My thoughts are all over the place at this moment, so...I'll just write in the order that they're coming...
My mom left on Friday afternoon. It was harder this time than last, I guess because we both knew it would be much longer before we saw each other again. It's with both of our families being on the other side of the country. The last time Pat's family saw Ryder, he was just about to turn 3 weeks old. He will be 12 weeks tomorrow. He has grown so much in those 9 weeks.
Right after Ryder was born

Almost 3 weeks old

11 weeks old

11 weeks old
Ryder is like a little boy now. Well, not really haha but compared to 2 months ago he is. And it makes me sad that his aunts and uncles and cousins can't see him and get to know him and see how funny he is. I also miss seeing my nieces and nephews. Carter is growing so quickly! Lily and Kemp are going into 2nd and 1st grade. Daisy and Powell are almost 4 and Blakely is getting bigger, too. I know how lucky Pat and I are to have a close family, but having a physical distance between us is hard.
I think I am going to try and take Ryder either to Orlando or Nebraska to see my family again in the next few weeks. I am also currently trying to find a free way (Space A) to get to Alabama to see my sister and my in laws. Praying that these hopes come to fruition (is that the right spelling? haha)
Friday, before my mom left, I had an endocrinologist appointment for my Diabetes. My a1C was 7.1. While I was pregnant it was 6.4, so it is slowly climbing up and I need it back below 6. I am starting to check my blood sugar more each day so I am not constantly chasing them. I KNOW what I have to do. My problem is actually doing it. But it's not just about me anymore. If something happened to me, I have no idea what Pat would do, haha. He is lost when it comes to getting Ryder to stop crying and to go to bed:) But I love seeing him hold his son. It is one of the sweetest things in the world. And I love seeing Ryder smile when I go to pick him up. So I am taking my Diabetes head on and I'm going to kick it's a** and control it and not let it control me.
While on FB tonight, I found a link on a friends page to another blog. It broke my heart to see the pain this little boy is in. Immediately, my heart started praying...not just my words...but my soul sent prayers to God for Tripp. There are so many things that could have "happened" to me or Ryder...that could still happen to any of the three of us...but God is faithful and has blessed me with so much. I'm posting the link to this blog and asking that you will also pray for Tripp.
Well, I am off to bed and thanking God for all the things he has blessed me with.
Love you all.